将要开工的我

当实习生的日子完咯。好快哦。一直期盼的那天竟然到了。。。

但是，我正式工作的那天也不久哦，就在下个星期。

在这个一个星期的假期里，我会好好充实自己，让自己放空一下，哈哈。感觉好奢侈哦。

可能做一点音乐来自己玩玩吧，然后开工后就肯定没有时间了的咯。

我听别人说，一旦开始做工，就是一辈子了。我呢，反而不认为这样哦。

因为我觉得时间可以安排好好的。安排好好就不会没有时间咯。事在人为嘛，对不对？

在外面一个人住，其实不是很习惯。很多东西我发现原来需要两个人一起做才会有意思。

比如说，我煮东西，如果有另一半来品尝，肯定很幸福咯。比如看戏，两个人看比较爽。

我啊，还是很期待有两个人生活的日子的，可能明年吧。

在家煮的东西，都不放油的，因为不想弄肮脏屋主的厨房。

虽然没有放油，但是还是很好吃，谢谢调味料哦，还有一些蔬菜，丰富了汤水。谢谢你们

我的工作，在一个手套厂做化学师。当然虽然环境不是很理想，但是工资还算蛮高的。

好啦，我大概也写完了。在十一月，我将要参加大学的毕业典礼，自己的哦。开心哦。可以和朋友相聚，谈天都可以谈上整天，真开心。期待回去大学的那天。

自从

从那天起，她不再认为我的想法正确，不再认为我能够活出自己。

以前的她，都是很尊重我的决定的。她很随我意，因为我在她心目中很乖。但是，他告诉了她我的思想的缺陷后，一切都改变。

我以后在哪里做工，应该做什么工，都由她决定。难道我思想一点正确都没有？就这样，我觉得我活得更不开心。

可能他说的对，但是事情能够改变啊。难道说命运决定是那样，就需要跟着它跑。那我们来到这个世界不就是已经被规划好，那一个人的脱离苦海就已经被规定好在几年几月几号？

他说释迦摩尼佛是个不负责任的人，因为释迦摩尼佛不打理国家大事，反而出家寻找答案。难道这样不对吗？还是他和释迦摩尼佛之间有什么误会？

他的确很对，我没有一点是不认同他的，但是自从那次后，我家人就变得很奇怪，尤其是对我的态度。真的很奇怪。难道我已经不习惯于他们相处？还是他们开始认为我思想不正确后就那样？

我没有不喜欢他们那样，但是现在变成我没有做决定的权利，因为他说我思想不正确，所以我所做的决定一旦不符合我家人的思想，他们就认为我不对，不应该那样决定。

我啊，其实做每样东西东西都有理由。我吃的健康一点，过的平淡一点，这样也不对。晚上八点过后不吃东西，也被他们说。不喝外面的饮料，也被他们讲。我对钱不奢求也被他们讲。难道他们要我不健康，要我贪钱，要我浪费钱？

我从来就那么的节俭，根本就不想浪费钱。因为我知道钱很难赚。我对健康很看重，因为我觉得健康第一。难道这样也不对。我也很不想花妈妈的钱，因为真的很心痛，妈妈辛辛苦苦赚回来的，却花在我们身上。

我承认我在大学时期因为朋友影响，学坏了。但是我真的忏悔了，真的以后都不会那样了。真的很对不起那些我伤害过的人，真的很对不起。我道歉。

我真的很想过这平淡的生活。就这样简单罢了。存钱，旅行，学我想要会的东西。那么简单。我妈妈不懂我这个计划，她就一直觉得我应该打拼事业。可是我真的很想过个 quality life.真的。

希望一切会顺顺利利。希望如此

Knowing your future...

When you know what will happened to you in the next second, what will you do? If you know that you will win a hundred thousand dollars via lottery, what will you do? If you know that you will die in 32/13/2015, what will you do?

In fact, I won't be bothered by all this knew future, because I know that something will change in the middle. Something better will come to you when you always have a good thinking. That's why I will not afraid of knowing all of them. This is what I think.

Some people will try to do something to prevent bad things happen. Some people will try to live different lifestyle to avoid bad future to come true. But why people always accept good things but refuse to accept bad things? This is because people always want to have good life. In fact, do we always have a peaceful life?

Everyone come to this world should experience everything. Is EVERYTHING! Bad, Good, Happy, Sad, Angry, Anxious..... Is EVERYTHING! When we go through all this, we grow. Our way of thinking become better. We cannot always hope that our life is always good, because it will not happen anyway. Try to accept what happen to you, try to understand why things happen to you. Everything happen should have a reason. Try to ask why to yourself and accept what had happen.

Less complain, more accept. You will be happier than ever.

Ellie Goulding - Love Me Like You Do (Official Video)

This is a nice song. Arrangement is great. This is how i feel lately

Is late, but not too late.

Is late, but not too late. Haha. Although many things happened lately, I'm still alive. Yeah! Have to celebrate it or not? Hmmmm…

Today I ate a lot. Mc Donald big mac, mamak fried Mee and a mocha frappe. A lot of money spent today. But I think it's worth because I get satisfaction.

Is late because things that happen to me already did happened. I accepted myself as who I am. My parents are not going to live together anymore. My friends are not going to see me anymore.

However, is not too late for me to live my life. My future is bright and shine. I can see that (because I'm an optimist). I can decide what I want to be and what will be going on in my future, whether I want to work hard and earn money, or persue my passion; my future is depent on me.

I would try to tell everyone who I am and who I want to be in the future. Those who already knows, thanks for the supports all you gave. Appreciate that so much. I hope when the time comes, thing will be carried out as smooth as possible. Haha.

Thank you and good night. Amitaba...